Collisions

It’s been a while since I’ve seen you,
and everyone assures me that’s for the best.
All I know is that one of us was a giant coward…
but I no longer know which one.

Then I round the corner and collide into you,
and we laugh at happenstance-
at having found something missing
after an exhausting search.

As though nothing had ever changed,
or everything had,
I was still the person you believed in,
and you, the person I loved the most.

It ends abruptly, before I’m ready,
as it does every night at 4 am
when I wake alone in my bed,
holding very still,

just in case.